Family

Recently I had the most amazing experience, that can be summed up in one word. Utah.

I have been dying to visit my old home for months, and here, I had the opportunity to go for at least a couple of days before I was supposed too. 

I got to visit all of my old friends and listen to my sister give her farewell talk and prepare to leave to the MTC.

On the flight I sat in nervous anticipation. I was cramped up in a corner for most of both flights. But, I didn't mind. One: I got to travel with my mom, and Two: I was going to Utah when I wasn't necessarily supposed to go. So I just stared out the window, looking for the Utah horizon. The mountains rising in the distance.

We got in at around 2:00 am, and we spent the night at my grandparents house.

The next day I visited my cousins, and then my mother told me that she would drive me to pick up my friends so that we could do an awesome activity together, (which is awesome because she was supposed to be helping my sister Hannah, and she took time out of her day to support me, and my friends.)

We passed several places that I used to know growing up in Utah. Only though its been a year, its felt like twenty, and I was finally back home. 

Visiting with my friends was awesome. But, for some reason I felt as though I was faking my way through the day. I was smiling and being really perky for their sakes, when in reality I just wanted to hold each one of them and cry my heart out.

I sorta got my opportunity when my friends and I went to see inside out together. I cried and cried during the movie, and I couldn't have felt more at peace in the middle of all of my friends. the only thing that could've improved my trip was if Hyrum had been there. (My twin) 

Although there are some friends I wasn't able to see, and Im so sorry about that. It would've been SO great if I had been able to talk to every single one them. 

And, although I love my friends, I must say that I love my family so much more. And, this love couldn't have been more prominent for me, then when my sister Hannah gave her farewell talk.

I sat there and watched her as she spoke about her experiences about college and growing up. She talked about how much she failed, but how much she had learned, and I just sat there with tears streaming down my face, because I finally realized how amazing of a missionary she was going to be.

Im not worried about her at all. She is a natural at speaking with others.

However while she was speaking, I was surrounded with almost ALL of my family. We took up almost half of the ward sacrament room we were in.

I felt so at home. We talked after the sacrament meeting and I was able to talk to a lot of people I hadn't seen in a while. And I loved every minute of it.

When I had to leave, I had to say goodbye to my older siblings, and I just held my sisters Hannah, and Michaelah and just cried and cried.

I will never forget them, or the memories that we made together as a family. No matter how crazy annoying or idiotic it was. I still love them for it.

So thank you family. You made my year here bearable, and I cannot wait to see where we go in the future.

HOLIDAYS TODAY!!!!!

DID ANYBODY ELSE KNOW THAT TODAY IS INTERNATIONAL TRAFFIC LIGHTS DAY!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY FOR TRAFFIC LIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!

Isn't it amazing!

Clouds

So, lets just take a second, and appreciate how fantabudazzilosticiously amazing clouds are.

If you haven't looked at clouds recently, your missing out.

Randomness

So recently I've done a lot of thinking, (dangerous right?) And I have determined that my life, my existence is a mere distraction. My true life...... belongs in HARRY POTTER WORLD!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

YUP! This is my future. A train. With a flying car. Flying around it.

But, no seriously Harry Potter world was the coolest experience of my life. I walked through Hogsmead, drank Butterbeer, and best of all, went through the hogwarts castle. (IT WAS SERIOUSLY EPIC!!!!!!)

So I've determined that that is where my destiny lives. My existence in Mass. has just been a distraction of my true destiny. *Taking a moment to clap for myself*

I guess you could say not everything about Harry Potter world is fantabulous. But its okay, because 

Yeah maybe I'm a bit odd.

*Sniffling* (Luna, your my favorite.) :D

But yeah! Its not like

THIS! is my future. (IM better than that. No offense Umbridge) 

So now that you know my entire future, Im gonna have to ask you to keep it a secr- , ( SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSHHHHHHHHHHHH)

You can't tell a soul...... Capish?

get it, got it, good.

Disney

IM GOING TO DISNEY NEXT WEEK!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!

Lost

Do you ever get that moment in life where nothing makes sense? Where right and wrong seemed to be so entwined that, sometimes you just can't tell which from which?

As of late, that's what life consists of for me. My life is passing by in a blur. Decisions, thoughts, and feelings seem insignificant. I try to get past each day, and do my best to stay out of trouble, but I always feel as if I'll never amount to what everyone expects from me.

I guess the only thing TO do is to stay positive, and trust that somehow I will found out how I influence people here, and what my divine purpose for being here is.

I guess at this moment, I should thank everyone who has supported me. But, to be honest, I think the people who most deserve this shoutout, are the people here in Mass. who listen to me, and my complaints day after day. I know that I can be extremely irritating, and tend to seem like I don't care, but making the most of living here is what I'm striving for.

So, I hope I haven't offended anyone for living :) .

Friendships

*Sniffle* *Sniffle* *Tears* *Wailing screams* WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

*throwing objects* *shattering windows* *Stopping to be distracted by a bird* *emotional breakdown* *Listening to tailor swift music when she was actually good* *watching disney movies, again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again*  *numb silence*.................................... *Just remembering*....................................