change

Winds in the east.

The mist coming in.

Like something is brewing.

About to begin.

Can't put a finger on what lies in store.

But I feel what's to happen,

Already happened, before.

I just watched Saving Mr. Banks with my friend Emma, and unbeknownst to her, (because she left five minutes before it was over,) I balled my eyes out. Movies like that do that to me.

I just wanted to let the people of Littleton who are now going to attention the Acton ward now, that I applaud them for the bravery. And to the people who will remain in Littleton, I applaud you on your courage for letting them go.

Change isn't easy. It never is. But, that doesn't mean it's impossible.

Mary Poppins was all about the impossible.

I hope you all have a wonderful new year. And comment some of your goals! I'd love to hear about them!

Disney arrival and ownership. (It's mine..... No seriously you guys can't have it.)

So.... to put it bluntly......


Disneyland is my new future home.


You walk to the front gates, and the music of your childhood dreams fills your ears as you approach the first entrance, and once you step inside the beautiful lamps of light, and the beautiful Mickey mouse shaped flowers greets you like a long lost friend.


All the while I'm humming.

(Don't pay mind to the random people in the photo, they don't matter.)

The train honks, and the sweet smell of really old electronics baking in the sun for decades fills your soul, and you smile like there's no tomorrow. 

And while you're still smiling this song plays in your head.

You grab your siblings hand, and laugh in a crazy cackling kind of way, and sprint around the bend to witness the most gorgeous sight on planet earth.

You start tearing up, as you walk to the nearest store and worship the ground it stands upon.



You drool at the beautiful display of toys and trinkets, knowing that each is too ridiculously priced.

You gasp at the exotic assortments of vehicles that make you think you've stepped into the twenties.

Your heart stops, and you start to have a heart attack as you crawl past the Mary Poppins café and lunch-in, where you know that you're going to force the whole family to eat at. 

(Which we did of course. It was called the Jolly Holiday like in the movie.) :D 

And finally, you pass out as your heart explodes when you walk underneath the castle, and your siblings get the responsibility of dragging you through the door.

Oh Disneyland. 

The place where dreams come true. :D

Make a splash

I love rainy days.

“For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness.” 

So don't waste your time.

-Joseph :D

POSITIVE QUOTES!!!!!

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Old Love

Listening to the married life song from Up right now. 

Brings back a lot of memories.

Ever have that experience?

Candy Post

So, by looking at the post title, I'm sure you all concluded that this post was going to be about candy.... Well guess what.... You're wrong.... 

This post, is just some random post i've decided to add to the list of already existing random posts. 

So to keep up with its randomness I decided to start with a random list of random things. :D Thats a lot of random.

Random list of random things

Random fact 1: Did you know that Odontophobia is the fear of teeth?

Random fact 2: When you die, your hair still grows for a little while. (Gross right?) :)

Random fact 3: The sound of E.T. walking was made by someone squishing their hands into jelly.

AND THATS ALL FOR RANDOM FACTS!

If none of that was random for you than try this random photo of a random act of kindness.

*gasp* Its so cute I can't stand it.....

Anyway.....

Come back next time for another small rant on randomness.

Yes.......

Breathe

So, on the second to last day that I was with my family in Utah, my sisters Michaelah and Hannah sang for us. And one of the songs Hannah sang is one of my absolute favorites. 

It's called breathe from in the heights, and to be totally honest, I balled like a baby when she sang it. 

This is the song. Just watch and listen to it, and tell me it doesn't make you a little sad just listening to it. 

The story behind it is that the girl singing, (Nina,) lives in the a small broken down village, and worked harder than anyone to achieve her dreams. She got great grades, and saved money to go to college.

She got accepted to Stanford, and tried to work two different jobs while doing classes at the same time, and ended up failing her classes, and now she is home, to face the people she knows, and her family.

It's a beautiful song.

Family

Recently I had the most amazing experience, that can be summed up in one word. Utah.

I have been dying to visit my old home for months, and here, I had the opportunity to go for at least a couple of days before I was supposed too. 

I got to visit all of my old friends and listen to my sister give her farewell talk and prepare to leave to the MTC.

On the flight I sat in nervous anticipation. I was cramped up in a corner for most of both flights. But, I didn't mind. One: I got to travel with my mom, and Two: I was going to Utah when I wasn't necessarily supposed to go. So I just stared out the window, looking for the Utah horizon. The mountains rising in the distance.

We got in at around 2:00 am, and we spent the night at my grandparents house.

The next day I visited my cousins, and then my mother told me that she would drive me to pick up my friends so that we could do an awesome activity together, (which is awesome because she was supposed to be helping my sister Hannah, and she took time out of her day to support me, and my friends.)

We passed several places that I used to know growing up in Utah. Only though its been a year, its felt like twenty, and I was finally back home. 

Visiting with my friends was awesome. But, for some reason I felt as though I was faking my way through the day. I was smiling and being really perky for their sakes, when in reality I just wanted to hold each one of them and cry my heart out.

I sorta got my opportunity when my friends and I went to see inside out together. I cried and cried during the movie, and I couldn't have felt more at peace in the middle of all of my friends. the only thing that could've improved my trip was if Hyrum had been there. (My twin) 

Although there are some friends I wasn't able to see, and Im so sorry about that. It would've been SO great if I had been able to talk to every single one them. 

And, although I love my friends, I must say that I love my family so much more. And, this love couldn't have been more prominent for me, then when my sister Hannah gave her farewell talk.

I sat there and watched her as she spoke about her experiences about college and growing up. She talked about how much she failed, but how much she had learned, and I just sat there with tears streaming down my face, because I finally realized how amazing of a missionary she was going to be.

Im not worried about her at all. She is a natural at speaking with others.

However while she was speaking, I was surrounded with almost ALL of my family. We took up almost half of the ward sacrament room we were in.

I felt so at home. We talked after the sacrament meeting and I was able to talk to a lot of people I hadn't seen in a while. And I loved every minute of it.

When I had to leave, I had to say goodbye to my older siblings, and I just held my sisters Hannah, and Michaelah and just cried and cried.

I will never forget them, or the memories that we made together as a family. No matter how crazy annoying or idiotic it was. I still love them for it.

So thank you family. You made my year here bearable, and I cannot wait to see where we go in the future.

HOLIDAYS TODAY!!!!!

DID ANYBODY ELSE KNOW THAT TODAY IS INTERNATIONAL TRAFFIC LIGHTS DAY!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY FOR TRAFFIC LIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!

Isn't it amazing!

Clouds

So, lets just take a second, and appreciate how fantabudazzilosticiously amazing clouds are.

If you haven't looked at clouds recently, your missing out.

Randomness

So recently I've done a lot of thinking, (dangerous right?) And I have determined that my life, my existence is a mere distraction. My true life...... belongs in HARRY POTTER WORLD!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

YUP! This is my future. A train. With a flying car. Flying around it.

But, no seriously Harry Potter world was the coolest experience of my life. I walked through Hogsmead, drank Butterbeer, and best of all, went through the hogwarts castle. (IT WAS SERIOUSLY EPIC!!!!!!)

So I've determined that that is where my destiny lives. My existence in Mass. has just been a distraction of my true destiny. *Taking a moment to clap for myself*

I guess you could say not everything about Harry Potter world is fantabulous. But its okay, because 

Yeah maybe I'm a bit odd.

*Sniffling* (Luna, your my favorite.) :D

But yeah! Its not like

THIS! is my future. (IM better than that. No offense Umbridge) 

So now that you know my entire future, Im gonna have to ask you to keep it a secr- , ( SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSHHHHHHHHHHHH)

You can't tell a soul...... Capish?

get it, got it, good.

Disney

IM GOING TO DISNEY NEXT WEEK!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!

Lost

Do you ever get that moment in life where nothing makes sense? Where right and wrong seemed to be so entwined that, sometimes you just can't tell which from which?

As of late, that's what life consists of for me. My life is passing by in a blur. Decisions, thoughts, and feelings seem insignificant. I try to get past each day, and do my best to stay out of trouble, but I always feel as if I'll never amount to what everyone expects from me.

I guess the only thing TO do is to stay positive, and trust that somehow I will found out how I influence people here, and what my divine purpose for being here is.

I guess at this moment, I should thank everyone who has supported me. But, to be honest, I think the people who most deserve this shoutout, are the people here in Mass. who listen to me, and my complaints day after day. I know that I can be extremely irritating, and tend to seem like I don't care, but making the most of living here is what I'm striving for.

So, I hope I haven't offended anyone for living :) .

Friendships

*Sniffle* *Sniffle* *Tears* *Wailing screams* WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

*throwing objects* *shattering windows* *Stopping to be distracted by a bird* *emotional breakdown* *Listening to tailor swift music when she was actually good* *watching disney movies, again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again*  *numb silence*.................................... *Just remembering*....................................

Insecurities

        .............................................. yup....... thats me.................................................

Food......

So most of you are probably wondering the about the name of my blog. It's not that inspired. I chose the name simply because I love the memories of picking gross apples out of orchard fields with spiders EVERYWHERE!!!! Or picking apricots literally off of the apricot tree.

yup..... That was my childhood. (To be totally honest, it was pretty fantabulous)

That wasn't my actual post..... I mean... I meant it, but that isn't what I was trying to get across..... Lately I've been able to have the opportunity to be in a play of a friend of ours named Shawn Cannon.  (that's her maiden name, but that is the name of the theatre so.... yeah,) It's pretty cool. I'm the prince's cousin, and I get to wear the absolutely most cool outfits every, and my fair is absolutely INSANE!!!!! 

So.... I would like to thank Shawn for giving me this opportunity, but I would also like to take this moment to thank metabolism....  Metabolism? Thank you for always being there for me. Especially in a time of crisis, when I solve all my problems with eating like a mad man.

Every day Metabolism.... Every day. :)

FOR THE LOVE OF ICE CREAM!!!!

......................................... I had six ice cream sandwiches yesterday.................. They were fantastic...........

Movies these days...

So I watched the theory of everything two days ago with my familia, and it was REALLY SAD! It was a great documentary on someones life, but the relationship between him and his wife, and just all the sorrow they had to go through its just..... UGH! So hard. Here.... Just looking at his face

I mean... Just look at that face!!! How could anyone look at that, and instantly think of every painful thing he is going to have to go through. *shaking head.* I just cannot believe movies, and tv shows these days. It was almost as bad as saving Mr. Banks.

I just.... I just can't! *SOBBING* WHY!????!!!!! WHY!!!?!?? WHY!? ARE THEY SO GOOD BUT SO SAD!!!!!!?????

On top of all of this I have talking with my fiends form Utah, and I cannot wait to visit this year. LOVING ALL OF YOU RIGHT NOW!!!!!! :)

Unconditional love

Have you ever liked someone, but you know that it is absolutely futile because they are never going to like you back? I hate that. :( On the upside! It means I can treat myself to tons of ICE CREAM!!!!!